Things have been good.
But just Good, and then not too hot, and then you know, OKAY. O.K.A.Y.
And we have been happy in OKAY for the last few months.
It’s the middle years of being a police officer. About 7 years right now, some of that time in
the jail, some on the road, but 7 years seeing the trash society spits out can
make a person well. …..Just OKAY.
There is nothing wrong with Okay, only that it is not
great! T-rex and I have also been
married for almost 9 years. . .we are doing Okay. Well sometimes we are doing WOW AWESOME!! And other times I try to think of places to
put the body . . .but that’s all okay.
T-rex is getting to the point where the job is just another
job, and that is fine, we all get that way with things. I have days where there is nothing you can do
to get me motivated to take care of the kids, so I do it halfass and call it
day. Other days I am like amazing mom
with book reading powers and owe kisses to save the world. Yeah I rock that much!
I guess the hard part for me right now is that I can’t see
my life without T-rex being a police officer in some way. He is part cowboy here; it is in his blood
kind of thing. Without that he would
change and so would I. There is nothing
wrong with change, and I want him to be happy, but he is a police officer and I
am a police wife that is just how it is.
So seeing the satisfaction level drop a million points is hard.
Not to mention in a life where there is no stability I just
now found some and he isn’t really feeling it.
I wonder if he and the department can get some therapy like
couples therapy? I wonder how that would
even go:
T-rex: “You made me miss dinner again!”
Department: “It’s because I need you!”
T-rex “You gave me a bad evaluation on something I do
amazing awesome on!”
Department “I am sorry!
You are so much better than you have been this last week.”
T-rex “yeah well, I haven’t gotten any sleep, and I don’t want
to deal with dumb people anymore”
Therapist: “how could you two help each other to be better
to one another?”
Oh
T-rex if only you knew that now that your eyes were open to the dumb people you
would see them everywhere for the rest of your life. If your wife can spot a drunk driver now
there is no hope of going back.
