Life goes on

I hate that T-rex misses so much of our lives. I also wonder at times if I am not a little too active in the children’s activities. I mean, I sit here and wonder how people have a job?!  It would drive me crazy to not be there for every little thing that happens in their lives. And then I think that is not healthy, and I need a job, like yesterday! No matter what life goes on, the kids will keep going and playing. 

Unless they are Dino, and then things might be up in the air.  This kid has no clue how lucky she is. It was a typical busy Friday, homecoming here!  The kids got out of school early, and the older two were going to ride on a float for the parade. But Dino had to run back to class to get something.  She looked, she walked, and she nearly got ran over.

I can play it over and over again in my head, but I can’t put words to it.  There is nothing like watching your child’s life flash before your eyes. It is not an exaggeration when I say she had her feet under the top of the car before it stopped.  The car was going slow, and just looked both ways, and was just making her way across.  She didn’t do anything wrong.  Dino, looked saw the car was stopped at the cross walk and just started to walk, she didn’t do anything wrong. I just wish that they would have noticed a few feet before they did.

What bothered me the most I think wasn’t her reaction, or how close she was to being hurt, logically I now know that she would have been hurt, but no more than when she runs into the wall. My reaction is what still gets to me. I just froze and screamed.  I had never yelled so much, and yet I couldn’t move my feet at all. When it was all done and over with she was okay, she was across the street and I was still standing where I was.  I told the driver she is okay like 50 times, and thought I was okay.  And I was, until someone walked buy and said “that was scary.” Then I broke down and cried my eyes out.

T-rex would have run over there, pushed the car away, carried his baby girl to safety, and then ticketed everyone within hearing distance.  T-rex is cool like that.  Still life goes on.  T-rex can’t be there for everything that happens, and neither can I.  I have to trust that the kids will keep being okay, even if Dino has more close calls than most. Dino had a C-scan every year for the first 3 years of her life. We truly are lucky.