Worth more dead than alive

Is it sad that T-rex is worth more money dead then he is alive? Is it sad that I know this? Now this is only true if he were to die on the job. I think if he were to be so rude as to pass away when off work I would dress him in his uniform, place him in his car, and call him into work before letting anyone know he has passed away.

I know morbid right! Yet we had to have that talk today. I sit here alone at home, with the stress that something might happen to him. I had no clue what would happen if he were to die. I have never dealt with a close loved one dying. Never.

I almost felt bad for telling him he better die at work. He said it’s okay because Mighty Mouse has been told the same thing! I really wonder if that is some sick thing police wives do to deal with the constant stress? I fear we are picking up our husbands unusual humor.

I really hate talking about death. I feel for anyone who has lost a loved one. I cannot fully understand that pain. I think that is why I never knew what would happen if T-rex passed away. I think I liked not knowing. I liked when we never talked about it. But when he is off learning this stuff in class he wants to talk to me about it. Would it be so rude for me to tell him I don’t care? Ugh! I will just tell him nothing bad better happen. But then again he never listens to me anyway.